In my last post, I told you that in 2017 I have set some intentions for 2017.
The 1st goal/intention is to take better care of myself. Y'all. This has been my top goal for YEARS. Literally years.
I'll be honest. I don't know how to accomplish this. I have tried hundreds of things, and started over so many times. I have tried working with trainers, I have joined the gym...many times. I have loved spinning and zumba and videos. I have tried South Beach, Atkins, Paleo, Slim Fast, eating healthy....all with results. I know how to eat healthy, how to work out. I don't know how to keep wanting it.
Here's the thing I have found so far, no matter how firm my resolve when I start, no matter how intensely I believe I want it or how many times, I repeat the why's.....I eventually fight myself. It's like the level of resolve I have to conquer in this area gets met with the most vicious resolve to stay where I am. As much as I say I want to be healthy, I want to lose weight there is a part of me that is so determined to keep me stuck.
Honestly, I don't know what the answer is. I only know that I want to get in the ring and go another round. Surely one day the taste of victory will be so sweet that my endurance to stay in the fight will get better. Thats what I am hoping for.
This post doesn't have any answers. It's just an attempt to be open and hope that the vulnerability brings some type of insight.
That said, as I duck into the ring for another round, I'm open to your advice. Have you found balance in this area? Have you found victory? Have you fought yourself and won? I want to hear from you.